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Thursday, July 29, 2004
Pass the sugar
Nothing like a good bowl of cereal and no milk to go with it. Crunchy goodness!
Good morning, everyone! It's about 9:21, and for once I'm not tired out of my mind! That could be the fact that I slept in a little more than I originally intended, but who cares, neh? Not much on today's schedule for me other than preparing my laundry for my week trip to Texas. My choir's national competition is over there, so I've gotta start getting ready for the trip. I've also got crap strewn all over my room that I've gotta take care of: old high school papers, more papers, the occasional trashy item, and then more papers. I've gotta sort through all the papers and make sure the save what's necessary and dump the rest.
Tonight's the teen showcase at my church, in which I'll be singing in the choir. It's more of a practice than anything, except that it's just in front of people. Nothing too extreme there.
I've been trying to do some more poetry lately, I've had a lot of good thoughts and ideas recently, but I haven't really found the time to sit down for an hour or so to collect them and write something out. However, when I'm on my trip, I'll have plenty of time to spend with a pad of paper and a pen.
Now Playing - "Cowboy Bebop - Goodnight Julia"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 9:19 AM
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Tuesday, July 27, 2004
Ice Cream for chocolate
I got home about an hour ago, and now I'm sitting here with an almost empty half gallon tub of Dreyer's Blue Ribbon Chocolate Cake Ice Cream and a spoon. I'm not too sure what it is about chocolate that calms the nerves, but I find it very comforting and calming.
I'm awake tonight...er...this morning, with nothing to do and knowing that I need to get up early tomorrow isn't making me want to fall asleep anytime soon. Despite the fact that I need to have enough energy to drive tomorrow, I really don't feel the urge to sleep. Perhaps I'll lie in bed staring at the ceiling while listening to the Blind Melon CD I picked up today.
Crap....I'm out of ice cream. Figures.
Well this was a post about absolutely nothing...so if it doesn't entertain you enough, I'm sure you could dig through the archives a bit. That is, if clicking one of the archive links and using the scroll button on your mouse isn't too much work for you. Good night.
Now Playing - "Blind Melon - Desserted"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 12:40 AM
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Friday, July 23, 2004
Speaking my mind
Here's a poem I just wrote, finished, but still in the works as far as lyrics go. Words subject to change later, but read it anyway. I'm sure it'll be awhile before I feel the urge to mess with it.
I Wonder
By Ryan Bach
Seeing you again
Brought back memories
Some good, most bad
But times have changed
And I find no heart within
To reopen the wounds you left
I find no motivation inside
To go through everything again
I sit here wondering
How could you ever wake up?
How could the sun ever shine?
When you’re still holding onto the past
Letting happiness pass away like the time
When will you turn around?
I remember the nights
When the tears fell like rain
I’d be there for you
Catching each one
Giving hope generously
Broken inside, unable to pick up the pieces
Wanting to shed tears of my own
Because you never gave back to me
So I’m wondering
How could the rains ever stop?
How could the clouds ever roll away?
When you’re dying inside everyday
Blind to all the goodness life offered
When will you look up?
Each night I get
Is filled with prayers for you
Hoping you’ll know how good life is
Wondering if you could ever notice
Where the path your walking leads
Time is always changing
For better and worse
But it provides just what the soul needs
And I wonder
Will you ever see?
Now Playing - "Blind Melon - Walk"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 2:33 PM
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Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Better and Worse
My parents chewed me out today cause I had asked them for a specific address for the third time this month. You would think I'd a shot someone because I got chewed out over the phone for asking my step-dad cause I was interrupting him. Which is contradictory cause he had told me five minutes earlier that it wouldn't be a problem if I called five minutes later and asked. Then, because he hung up on me, I still needed the info for my application (since Starbucks apparently didn't have the one I already turned in), I called my mom and asked. I got the same response, kinda. She was upset cause I should "know" it by now. I got a lecture from her on how I'm not responsible, or if I was, I wasn't showing it. I just asked her again, aside from her lecture, "Do you have the address? Cause that's what I need." and she finally told me, still lecturing in between.
The interview with Starbucks went really well, I even got a second interview, so that was really cool!
I'm sure there's more in store for me tonight as my parents, Jesse, and I "talk" about certain "issues".
Yippee, I'm abounding in joy.
Now Playing - "Evanescence - Whisper"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 4:18 PM
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Tuesday, July 20, 2004
From a time not too long ago
I wrote this poem 3 or 4 months ago, back when I was in a more morbid state of mind. I never thought about posting it, perhaps because I didn't want anyone to know what I felt like. But times have changed and I no longer have those feelings. I remember what I felt like but I've moved on. And it's a good poem, I think. You be the judge.
Wood For The Fire
By Ryan Bach
I stand, only in awe
As you toss my life into the pit
Watching every moment slowly, carefully
The flames are growing rapidly
Heat is ebbing from the hearth
As the wood crackles in my heart
The embers of life riding the wind
Slowly disintegrating my heart
Into the smoke that rises to meet the air
You could save me now
And extinguish the flames that consume me
Collect the ashes that may remain
But you’re just adding more wood to the fire
Standing next to me
Watching my life burn away
Now Playing - "Anberlin - Cadence"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 4:43 PM
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Monday, July 19, 2004
The sun is out, but my mind's in bed
I woke up this morning barely able to move for the first hour, then I finally decided to get up out of bed and take a shower. Sleep would have been a better choice, but I had to drive my grandpa to a house so he could clean the pool. The moment I got home, I realized that I had things I needed to do, yet I don't feel in the mood for cleaning right now. I'd rather have the music blasting, but I can't right now. At least not until my step-dad wakes up.
Still waiting for Starbucks to give me a call about my application. That should be happening this week.
Jesse flew back in Saturday night at about 9:20 or so, and I was so glad to be there when she arrived! She had such a great time on the east coast, but she's really glad to be back here in California. I'm very glad she's back. I've missed her so much!
My backyard's gotta be finished ASAP, so I'll be putting in some used coffee grinds (thanks to Starbucks) to help give the soil some nutrition. It's been worked on for a week, and things are going smoothly despite the fact that the ground is hard as cement.
I think that's all there is for today. I'm tired. My lip is still healing, but getting there. My skin is also peeling like no other. God, that's annoying!
Have a great day, everyone!
Now Playing - "(Mega Man X3)OC Remix - Beatdrop - X-BusterMK-17"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 10:11 AM
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Saturday, July 17, 2004
You wish you could rave like donatello and adolph.Posted by Sean .xXx. 5:04 PM
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Friday, July 16, 2004
Family night, yet again
I just got home from shopping with my family. I told them subway would be really good, but they argued and said shopping at the store would be cheaper. It took me two seconds to realize that they were wrong cause each pound of meat we got was like $6, then there's the bread, too. But whatever, it was fun to shop with them, no matter how annoying they can be.
As usually the potshots are flying around, and I got the blunt edge of some of it tonight. They're picking on me cause my lip isn't completely healed yet (but its getting very close), and making fun of the fact that I'm peeling. So I just shoot back at them with my own comments and make it even. Such is the way of the Wesson Family Night.
Well I think we're watching a movie tonight, it should be a lot of fun! I'm gone for now. Dig around in the archives if you're bored, there's some good stuff in there.
Now Playing - "(Linus Spacehead)OC Remix - DarkeSword - Space Drifter"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 8:30 PM
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Thursday, July 15, 2004
Support the globalization
Jump on in gang, everyone's doing it! Join your local Starbucks today!
I went to my interview today at the local Starbucks to try my hand at getting a job there. We did a group interview, in which a previous Starbucks employee, Rico, and I sat and chatted with two of the managers. They asked all sorts of questions and it seems like the girl who had previously worked for Starbucks has a huge chance at getting a job. As for Rico and I, we did a pretty good job ourselves. I feel pretty good and excited about it, so I'm awaiting a call from one of the 7 or so managers in the district.
I'm feeling a bit ill at the moment so I think it's best if I just stayed home for the night. I'm just gonna kick back, listen to some Overclocked Remix, and maybe get caught up in a book.
Oh, thanks again Blogger, changing things up with the posting template again, I see. What will they change next? It's a guessing game.
Now Playing - "(FF7) OC Remix - MENBAH! - Prayer"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 4:55 PM
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Tuesday, July 13, 2004
Hi Ho Abreva!
I have cold sores....damnit! And so after enduring another pool route with grandpa I went to the local store and picked up some Abreva, the wonder drug...
It sure as hell better work miracles if it costs $17.00; my sores better go away in a day or so for that kind of money. I wanna see some magic sparkles or something flying around making "whooshing" noises or see them magically disappear before my eyes or something! I gotta get rid of these sores quick, it's making me miserable, and I'll be even more miserable if I have them much longer.
I swear when I took the tube out of the box and looked at it, I was like, "What the hell?" It's not even 3/4" long! Not only is it expensive, but they don't even give you a big tube of it!
Whatever, it better work!
Now Playing - "(Zelda 3) OC Remix - Disco Dan - Triforce Majeure"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 5:11 PM
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Monday, July 12, 2004
Rise and shine
This morning I got an unhappy reminder that it was Monday, moreso, that today I needed to drive my grandpa. I'm just now getting back from that and I'm a bit tired, but the gardeners are outside making noise so I can't really get anymore sleep.
While I was with him, my grandpa didn't say much, but here's the dialogue of the day...
"I've been trying to remember the name of my uncle. Hmm...his name was Howard. Howard and my other uncle are both dead." - Grandpa Jim
I couldn't think of anything to say after something so morbid, so I just came up with "Oh."
And that's pretty much the only thing he said today, excluding pointless comments about the heat. And just think I get to do it all again tomorrow, only longer.
Now Playing - "Metallica - Fight Fire With Fire"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 9:38 AM
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Sunday, July 11, 2004
Burnt To A Crisp
I burned my fingers and I have sunburns on my body that would resemble the color of a nicely cooked lobster. I'm fried, and can't really do much of anything without feeling some sort of burning sensation...
And I really had nothing to post other than the fact that I'm toasted from Katelyn's birthday party that I went to yesterday. It was a pretty good party at the beach, but I don't think my skin took a liking to the sun, despite the sunscreen I put on. But I think if it isn't SPF 50 or more, then it probably won't help anyway, espeicially since the radiation from the sun has been supposedly more intense as the years go on. It's probably gonna be hard to do anything in the next two days with my burns being the way they are. Maybe I'll just take a lot of Aleve or Ibuprofin before I do anything strenuous.
Jesse gets back in a week! ^_^
Now Playing - "Modest Mouse - What People Are Made Of"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 10:53 PM
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Friday, July 09, 2004
As the day whispers on
I dunno whether it's Blogger having a hard time loading my site or if it's just my network being bogged down, but I'm having a hard time loading my site. I apologize if that's the case for any of you. Anyway, I've noticed that quite a few people who are linked to the left have not really been posting lately. I should hope that they start up again soon.
In other news I've added the Evanescence - Fallen and the Metallica - Ride The Lightning albums to my music library and now I'm up to 2072 songs on my playlist. ^__^
I've gotta go to lunch with my dad today and then I'll be home taking care of some things in my room and a little bit in the backyard.
Now Playing - "Metallica - For Whom The Bell Tolls"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 11:45 AM
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Thursday, July 08, 2004
A job should only require so much
I went to that interview and to my surprise, I wasn't there for more than 10 minutes during the initial introduction. They brought us back into the lounge room and immediately told us some information that would automoatically disqualify a few people, that way their time would not be wasted completely. Everything was fine until I heard the hours, and the fact that we would not be hired if we had any vacations planned within the next 90 days. Concidering the fact that I am going to be in Texas for a week as of August 1st, I decided that I might as well cut it as a loss. Besides the hours they were asking for were rediculous. They wanted someone to work early mornings, nights, and weekends. The biggest thing that made me say "no way" in my mind was when they told us the shift was 6pm - 2am. I'm sorry...losing nights and weekends for crappy pay and miserable hours, where's the good part about that job? That's for loners and other weird people who have no life other than for working a job and hiding away in a hole.
Bottom line: the hours sucked, the pay sucked, and you are robbed of any chance at a social life.
Now Playing - "Evanescence - My Immortal"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 11:48 PM
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Spontaneous Interview
Hey guys, just dropping in a quick post. I'm getting ready to go to an interview over at Petsmart. I've already got my application in at the Starbucks Hiring HQ of the district, so I'm just going to this one to allow me to have more options.
I only found out about it today from a friend I was dropping off. She had told me that Petsmart was having an open interview day, so I figured I'd take the opportunity and go try my luck. I've always thought a job like that would be fun, even if it is minimum wage, I don't care....it's an income.
Wish me luck!
Now Playing - "Modest Mouse - I Came As A Rat"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 1:58 PM
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Monday, July 05, 2004
Stars, stripes, and other things...
The last two days have been pretty ho-hum around here. I sang in church yesterday morning for our 4th of July celebration, went home, argued with my mom (and won by a technicality), then hung out with Jeremy and Jen whilst we watched fireworks at Los Alamitos Air Base. The fireworks were nice, but sitting there alone made me realize again that something was missing from the picture. It's only been 3 days, but I'm missing Jesse like crazy.
So today I woke up expecting to take a nice relaxing break from everything and everybody, but my mom decided it was my job to fix my grandpa's truck. I worked with my step-dad and brother on the truck til about 3 or 4 in the afternoon, then proceeded to help my mom clean his house. Went home, swam in the pool to cool down, then watched movies for the rest of the day.
Now that I'm sitting here, I'm realizing that tomorrow I'll be out looking for a job, hopefully finding one, and moving in a forward direction in my life. I figure if I get a job, I'll start having money again, and I won't be moping around the house thinking about how much I miss my girlfriend. I've got a few options open at the moment. I hear that the Starbucks around the corner is hiring, and then there's that job application I have for Family Christian Stores.
I dunno, I think I just need to read a book or something for the moment to get my mind on some other things. Perhaps I'll finish reading George Orwell's 1984.
Now Playing - "(Final Fantasy IX) OC Remix - Sonicade - You Are Not Confined"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 9:43 PM
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Friday, July 02, 2004
She'll be back
In two weeks. Jesse left for Vermont today as I went to the airport with her. I had to say my quick goodbyes because her dad didn't want to sit there long...he was almost happy to get away from the airport. I dunno, sometimes I wonder about him and what he really thinks. I was really bummed that he cut it short and drove off so fast, I felt cheated. I wanted to say goodbye properly.
I already miss her soooo much! I dunno how I'm gonna make it, but I'll be thinking of her constantly and waiting for the day that she returns to me. I sound pathetic, but I really do miss her, I love her sooo much that being without her for two weeks is a big thing.
It's gonna be a long 2 weeks...
Now Playing - "(Shenmue)OC Remix - Arkimedes - Dreaming While I Wake"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 9:18 PM
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