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Monday, August 30, 2004
Back to the algebraic method
This morning started off well concidering I woke up to my annoying but efficient alarm clock, and there was no milk for my cereal, so I had to resort to coffee as breakfast. I crawled out of bed this morning, walking around like a zombie risen from his grave. After a half hour I looked human again, actually able to walk without slouching. I headed off to school around 7:00am just to make sure I had enough time to find my class.
Today really didn't feel much different from any other day, so the whole time I was on my way to class, I was in a state of disbelief. Reality hadn't set in yet, even as I walked into the classroom. I scanned the room for a suitably comfortable place to sit, void of any people who looked annoying. I decided that the mid-left part of the classroom would keep me in a quiet and focused section of the classroom, and it would also shield me from any unnecessary special treatment from the teacher.
Ahh, yes...the teacher. Some say he's a piece of work, crazy in some way or another, which I could see in some form, but then again, most teachers have their weird querks. I, for one, was most skeptical of his behavior and style of teaching, trying to understand what angle he was coming from as if to avoid any possible conflict that may occur. At first the room was a bit unsettling as the teacher expressed how much he loathed latecomers, letting a curse out here and there. From the way he talked and how deadly silent the room was, you could tell that many people in the room were a little uneasy, but after a few jokes were told, the room began to lighten up a bit. Even I, at first, was a little uneasy with my new teacher. He seemed to be a moody guy, pissed at one second, then fine the next. I dunno what all to expect from this class, but for the most part I can tell that it's going to be an interesting class, if such a thing can be said about an algebra class.
Now Playing - "(Donkey Kong Country) OC Remix - bLiNd - Blue Vision"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 10:20 PM
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Summer is gone
...and a new school year has arrived. The only difference this year is the fact that High School is long gone, never to be seen again, and college is the new frontier in my life. Today I will set foot for the first time as a freshman in college. Nothing spectacular, but definately significant in some respects. It is a new field of knowledge to conquer, a new society to blend into, and a new life to adjust into.
I'm not too nervous, probably cause there's no real reason to. If there was to be reason to be nervous, it's my new job. I go in tomorrow to fill out paperwork and find out what my schedule will be. Again, not much to worry about, so I'm just sitting here gathering the necessary items for class tomorrow. Back to Algebra/Trig. Yippee. I'm oozing with excitement....or not.
Now Playing - "(Crystalis) OC Remix - Neostorm - House Leaves"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 12:23 AM
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Thursday, August 26, 2004
Growing up
At a loss for words as I cannot express the uselessness I feel inside. There is no control, no power over what is to come, and so I must sit aside and watch as my life unfolds before my eyes. Caught in the here and now, unable to manipulate my future. Perhaps it's indecisiveness, or maybe reality has failed to set in. Am I really here, in this exact point of life? What happened to all those years that used to stand between me then? Have they passed already? I remember when it seemed so far away, thinking to myself that I had plenty of time before my life really began, and here I am, amazed to find myself at this time in my life. My future is at stake, and I have no idea what I'll do. Only guesses, and even then, I'm not too sure about those. Thing is, I have no control over what I become, and in thinking that, I have already chosen what to become. But bringing myself out of that dark pit of no self confidence is a task seemingly great. It is very difficult to change a perspective of thought once it has already been conceived, but I am willing to try. A change such as that leads to a successful life. If no change occurs, I will be stuck in the black hole of self-pity forever.
Now Playing - "(Sonic 2) OC Remix - DarkeSword - Dream Pipe"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 5:12 PM
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Wednesday, August 25, 2004
Anticipation
Lots of stuff coming up for me next week. I start college and my job on the same day, so next Monday is a BIG day for me. I'm pretty excited about the job, concidering it took me all summer just to find one. School is school, whether it be college or high school. You're still sitting down in a class listening to lectures and doing good ole busywork. But I suppose the only difference is found in the length of the lecture and the dificulty of the busywork, neh? I think I'll do fine, I just gotta make sure to make time to do the work they give me.
Jesse and I have been together for 3 months as of last Monday, and things between us are still going very strong! This Saturday we're going to go to an Indian Powow event, so I'm pretty thrilled about it.
I've had a feeling to write more poetry lately, but at the same time, I have been unable to gather my thoughts. Sometimes I have words and phrases that pop into my mind, but whenever I go to write them down, I can't seem to piece them together with anything. It's driving me nuts! I can't just write poetry like I used to, but then again, I've been trying to make it more meaningful, and at the same time, keep the readers interest. I guess there's just too much going on right now for me to sit down and have a clear head for it. No biggie, I'm sure I'll be able to do it later.
I went online to search for some cars within my price range and to no avail, I found naught but Cavaliers and Escorts. Two of the worst cars out there (not to mention the lamest). I'd rather ride a bike than drive those cars. I'm not too picky, I just want something with more UMPH (Uber Magical Power from Horses) in it and a small car like those does not have it. I might go with my mom tomorrow to the car dealerships to go look at some more cars. The online site wasn't doing much for me.
Another thing that's been bugging me (and probably some of you) is that my posts have been more about my life than what I've been thinking about lately. I originally wanted this site to be for the issues I'd been thinking about, rather than about the events of my life. I'm gonna work a bit more on trying to keep my posts within my original intentions of the site.
Now Playing - "OC Remix Radio"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 3:02 PM
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
Out of commission (The Death Of Pos-Nos)
That's right everybody, the POS-NOS is now dead in her grave. The van broke down two days after I got home from San Antonio and it's been in the shop ever since. The shop wanted more money than the vehicle was worth, so we decided to pull the plug. I'm gonna miss that van, lots of good memories in that car. It's been through quite a lot, she had a good run.
Time Of Death Called At:
188,330 miles
So long POS-NOS!
In other news, I got the job at Starbucks over by Goldenwest and the 22 freeway. I start on Monday, so I'm pretty anxious. I can't wait to get started!
4000 hits is on its way, so I'm pretty thrilled to know that people are still reading. My thanks go out to everyone. Here's a few shout-outs to all my online friends!
Sean - Hey man, thanks for all your support during the hard times, hope that everything will turn out alright for ya! Hang in there, bro!
Mason - It was nice to meet the face behind the insanity! Have fun in Japan, neh?
Sabrina - When times are hard, it may feel like you have to work harder to keep those feelings alive inside you, but the fact is that they will always be there! Whenever you feel like you can't talk to him, it's probably because you really need to.
Omnifarious - Hey, I haven't talked to you in a while, hope you're having a wonderful summer! I hope the AP testing went well for you!
KoS And Friends - I see you guys have been through hell and back. A lot of the good members I once knew are gone, and now the older members have come back from the dead. Times have been rough for you guys over the years, but you'll be a really good clan someday! Best of luck to you guys on that!
Evie And James - I haven't forgotten about you guys! I've been wondering how you guys are doing for a long while! Drop in a comment sometime! Best wishes to you two!
Lizzie - If you're still out there, hope you have found happiness in your life.
Everyone else - Thank you for reading this site, it's good to know that people enjoy what I write. You guys just need to learn how to use that comment section I put in, neh?
In loving memory of the POS-NOS
Now playing - "Audio Adrenaline - Chevette"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 4:06 PM
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Monday, August 16, 2004
Contains artificial flavoring
And that's what makes Pepsi Vanilla so good! Like any other flavor out there, you'll never find the real thing.
Today didn't bring much of anything other than aggrivation from my mother. She got back from a surgery yesterday, and so she's been very irritated with anything and everything, and because I'm the one who must drive her around, I catch hell for that anything and everything. Not fun.
But tonight I get to have dinner at my girlfriend's house, so it's something to brighten up the day. I'm so drawn out today, I dunno why. It went by so fast and I've hardly done much. Summer's hitting me pretty hard this year, it's been both extremely wonderful and bad simultaneously. Great because me and my girlfriend are doing great, but bad cause of the pressure from my parents about a job and the fact that it's so hard to get one. I've had to result to freelancing to get money here and there.
I need to get ready for dinner tonight, good night everybody!
Now Playing - "The Streets - Let's Push Things Forward"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 4:34 PM
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Tuesday, August 10, 2004
Dedicated Archive Week
Better translated as "I'm not posting this week"
It's been a day since I got back and I'm just taking time to myself to gather my thoughts and priorities. I got a weeks vacation in San Antonio that ended up being more stress than I needed, so I have decided to take the next week and take care of things Which means that I will be unable to post for a few days while I get things taken care of.
A few things that were wonderful about my trip to Texas was that my church's youth choir (in which I sing) second place in nationals and I got myself a nice cowboy hat. I had a good time, more or less, took some pictures, and walked around the city a lot. But I'm very glad to be back home in California.
You know the drill. You can search the archives for interesting rantings and poetry if you so choose, or you could search the blogs I've got linked to the left. Whatever your heart desires.
Now Playing - "Linkin Park - Points Of Authority"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 4:54 PM
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Wednesday, August 04, 2004
Greetings from San Antonio
Hey everybody, I just found out today that the hotel has free computer use and internet access (given that someone else isn't using it)! And so, I'm just dropping in to inform you that I will not be posting until sometime next week. Due to my involvement at Teen Talent 2004 National Competition, I will not be able to post until my return home.
So you all know what that means. If you want to read anything new here, you're gonna have to go back in time and use the archives. I'm sure there's something you haven't read yet. Thanks for your understanding everyone. Good night.
Now Playing - "Hotel Elevator Music - A jazzy sounding song"
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