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Sunday, November 21, 2004
It's not the end of the world
My mom caught me last night while I was home and we ended up getting into a conversation I would have rather avoided. It's just the same old stuff, and then she gets surprised when I tell her I don't want to be here. So, I finally ended it with the fact I'm older now, and I have my own life starting up now.
In school I've been writing essays and taking tests more than eating and sleeping it seems. Especially my english class, which has me surrounded in study and work. My last essay that I did came back last Thursday, and to say the least, I wasn't thrilled with my teacher's grade. I recieved a C, which was very confusing because all my peer reviews stated I had a very nice paper. When I read the reasons why my grade had dropped from the deserved A to a C, I nearly wanted to tear my teacher's head off right then and there, but I decided an email would have a more positive effect. That sets my grade back, and now I'm stressed over the 10-page research paper I have to write for him. I can't find the books I need for the assignment (probably because none exist) and its only delaying my initiation of the paper.
Winter break is on its way and I'll be done with the whole mess known as Carney English 100.
Now Playing - "(Secret Of Mana) OC Remix - djpretzel - Tidal Sequence"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 6:33 PM
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Tuesday, November 16, 2004
It's a bird, it's a plane....NO IT's A.....
POST!!!!!!!
And I thought the day would never come, but here I am, typing. It's so nice to feel the tension in my hands release, and to think, someday, that might be carpal tunnel. Anywho, it's wonderful to be back and typing again. Been busy as usual lately, mainly due to time constraints and my working schedule.
Life at home has been anything but. I got into a huge fight with my mom and my step-dad awhile back, and ever since that (I won?) my mother hasn't shown one ounce of "caring thought" as she doesn't even call me, or care to ask if I'm alive. I had planned a trip to my dad's and my mom opposed the idea (as she always does when it comes to me seeing my dad), but I went anyway, to get away from her, from here, and my busy life. I step into my house every night after my mom goes to bed so that I don't have to see her. I've decided I no longer have to search for her approval of my life, as I know she will never approve.
But that doesn't matter, I am my own person. I approve of myself, and I have others like my father, my girlfriend, and my friends who do approve of me. I've decided that I really don't need to get myself wrapped up in the drama my mother gives me. I'm working, I go to school, and I'm an all-around good kid, yet she still disproves of me. So I'm moving on. Yeah, I still live at my house, but if there were any possibility of being out on my own, I'd do it, just to get away.
Aside from the drama at my house, I'm doing great. Jesse and I will have been together for 6 months next week. School will be out soon (thank God!). All and all, life is looking up for a change.
Now Playing - "(Morrowind) OC Remix - Fray - Fear Not"
Posted by Ryan Bach .xXx. 2:57 PM
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